As long as I have been reading, I have been able to understand their own pain, has been with their own ignorance. Narrow-mindedness, prejudice, and darkness. Many people say that they want to shake hands with themselves, I don't want to be such a person, I want to take a stone to polish my stone. Will always read, will always suffer, always love the joy born out of the desolation of pain. It a rare thing in life to come and go.

只要我還一直讀書，我就能夠一直理解自己的痛苦，一直與自己的無知.狹隘.偏見.陰暗見招拆招。很多人說要和自己握手言和，我不要做這樣的人，我要拿石頭打磨我這塊石頭。會一直讀書，會一直痛苦，一直愛著從痛苦荒蕪里生出的喜悅。乘興而來，盡興而歸，在一生中這是很難得很難得的一件事。

Having a strong sense of self and being mentally unstable was really excruciating, because not only did I know I was self-destructing, but I was watching.

擁有很強的自我意識同時精神狀態(tài)不穩(wěn)定真的太折磨人了，因為我不僅知道我是在自我毀滅，我還一邊眼睜睜看著。

You are always in your own world, unable to participate in the events around you, unable to expend strength on others. You never had a burst of passion, always cooled the enthusiasm of others, always discouraged others, and absent-minded. "This time, she added a new adjective to my list of flaws: bland."

你總是沉浸在你自己的世界里，沒有能力參與到周圍的事情中去，不能把力量花費在他人的身上。你從來沒有突發(fā)的激情，總是使他人的熱情冷卻，總是令別人泄氣，而且還心不在焉。“這次，在我的缺點清單中，她又加了一個新的形容詞：平淡?！?/p>